Most of the time, I try not to think about it.
But sometimes I can't help it.
Like the other night.
I was putting Aubrey to bed and she started crying. I immediately knew what was wrong. Every few months she has a little breakdown. I sat down on the edge of her bed and asked her what was wrong. She sobbed out, "I MISS PAPA!"
It breaks my heart.
I miss him too.
I still feel like I am in denial sometimes, even though a year and a half has passed now. A year and a half.
I was writing a post on my blog a few weeks ago and my first thought was, Dad will get a kick out of reading this....
When I was talking to Aubrey the other night, my heart started to ache. I wondered how people can go so long without seeing someone they love. Because I know I will see him again someday.
My dad was a funny guy. You couldn't help but laugh when you were around him. In fact, we were just laughing at him yesterday. We were at my mothers house, taking the shingles off her roof so we can replace them. There was a lot of banging going on up there. One of the lights in the kitchen fell down. My kids saw the light hanging there and asked me why it fell. My response was, "Because Papa put it up". When my mom and her neighbors heard that, we all started laughing.
Oh Dad! We miss you!
6 comments:
Today was a hard day. Even though it has been a year and a half, I still can't believe he is not here. I miss him so much. Life will never every be the same, nor should it.
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I am so sorry for your loss Allyson. Thank you for sharing your tender feelings! I'm positive your Dad is still aware of you and your family.
I understand completely how you feel, my mom has been gone almost 19 years and I still have breakdowns every now and then, like I did at church Sunday, we sang Oh My Father and every time I hear it I lose it because her best friend sang it at her funeral. It does get easier and knowing that we will see them again does make the time more bearable
What a sweet post this was, Allyson. I know how much you all must miss such a special dad as Earl was.
I loved watching the slides--was that a famous Earl Snow fried turkey that I saw? I still remember eating wonderful meals at your house, among many other countless memories...
Cathy
Cathy,
Yes, that was one of his famous turkeys. Bart made the turkey for us this last Thanksgiving.
Yep I don't mean to be mean to him but it tasted not to good like papas FAMOUS tukeys.
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